Day 32 - Bank Holiday Monday

This morning, I was working away again on our “lockdown quartet” piece, re-recording notes that sounded slightly off or out of time. However, by the afternoon it had become clear that we’re going to have to start the whole recording from scratch again. It’s a pity, because I had laid down five or six violin parts already, but sure what else would we be doing! It must have been hard for Margo to record the violin one part on her own, but the tempo of it is quite variable throughout the piece and we’re struggling to play along with it, especially Anna on the piano, as she has a lot of notes to fit in!

We also had our “private” Zoom Pete class at 1.15pm today, as is usual now on a Monday. Me, Fiona, Mum, Lisa and Garrett did it. I’m really loving these online classes. It’s good to feel like you’re doing some good for your body during the lockdown. I still don’t have a kettlebell, so I had to do some of the exercises with my 9kg rock again. For kettlebell swings, I put the rock in a bag. It definitely felt a bit dodgy, and I was hoping that it wouldn’t fly out of the bag and smash the window while I was swinging it around!

I’m not really sure what I did with the rest of the day, to be honest. But again, that’s a good thing I think. This past weekend has felt nice and lazy, which seems to have been what I needed. I had a 2.5 hour Zoom chat with Mum, Fiona and Anna. Then, Peter left the house for his first bit of exercise in four weeks, to come with me for a 4km walk in the evening sunshine.

I found this evening tough. Missing my family just hit me like an absolute wall and I’m absolutely aching to see them again, all of a sudden. I had been doing fine in the lockdown so far, and the days had actually been flying along. However, the three more weeks of lockdown now seem to be stretching ahead, almost infinitely, and I have this feeling of not being able to cope, that I haven’t had so far. I think it was triggered by the fact that I decided today to extend my career break from Muckross and stay in Cork for another year. It’s weird that this decision changed nothing about my current situation today, but changed everything about my mindset! Hopefully it’s just a temporary blip in my emotions.

At least Tesco are delivering stuff from their newsagents and I have a treat of a nougat bar for myself this evening!Read more