Chiang Mai (loop) - Pai - monastery

Hello beautiful,
many things have happened in the last 2 weeks - outside and inside (also aftereffects of the retreat)

Minh and I went on a scooter loop around Chiang Mai for 5 days, stopping in Chiang Dao, Mae Salong and Chiang Rai. Enjoying hot springs, beautiful mountains, hiking, seeing waterfalls, doing tea tasting, visiting beautiful parks, meeting lovely people, camping overnight in the jungle ...
The loop was very nice but we had one scooter fall 🙈 but luckily we only got some scratches, nothing severe.
After our loop Minh ended his traveling to go back to Germany and I continued alone. However, I met lovely people and was never really alone ☺️. Even the alone time I really enjoyed. It feels liberating to live into the day and going with the flow trusting in my intuition. At the same time, I will miss having Minh by my side and sharing moments together. I reflected on our time together and am very grateful for everything we did and shared together.

I spent a few days in Chiang Mai visiting temples, spending much time with people in the hostel and attended a Buddhist teaching class by David Roylance which was very insightful.

After Chiang Mai I moved on to go to Pai a small village known for its hippie vibe. The vibe and energy are really relaxing. Probably because everyone is stoned 😂 the nature in Pai is incredibly beautiful, I went to see sunsets at beautiful viewpoints, joined jam sessions everyday, danced, spent much time with people exploring the town. I think Pai is one of my highlights, magical things have happened here but somehow you are in a bubble. The town is so small everything is in walking distance and you regularly bump into people you know. It feels like a big family since everyone is so welcoming and open.

After Pai I spent one day in a vipassana monastery near Pai. It was nice to get away from the party scene in Pai and to ground myself.

I had many inspiring conversations and gained many impressions and experience that I need to process. But this is something I deal with myself. Step by step I will move on, go with the flow and trust in my intuition and clear mind. I might share the insights in the future post. But for now I just share with you that I somehow found back my spark in life and want to explore that. I was and still am somehow lost, not knowing where I go, wandering around in the dark tunnel but can see a small light, trying to find happiness and true love, trying to find answers to understand myself better and the world outside. I think its really important to find a purpose a drive in your life to keep on going. Otherwise you will feel depressed and have no energy to live. I experienced that for quite some time and there are some days I can't get out of bed because I don't know why I should even wake up and do things. Or moments during the day where I just wish to be back in bed, sleeping - because that's the only moment where I don't feel this suffering inside ... I felt restless, having no energy. On the surface I try to be optimistic and positive because what other options are there? I don't know, I am not sure, it's for now love and spreading love and understanding, to keep on learning from lessons that life throws at you. For me it is to be mindful with your motivation, thought, speech and action. To water the wholesome and healthy seeds.

With that said I send you lovely vibes to wherever you are ❤️
Don't forget to breath, smile and connect to the here and now. We are alive and let's make the best out of it ☀️
KimWeiterlesen