Showday Lille

I finally got a long and good sleep, waking up around noon. I made my way towards the backstage, but it turned out to be quite a search, luckily Gerrity helped me find it. By then, the trucks had arrived (way later than planned), and they could finally start setting up the merch.

We decided not to do anything with the decorations to give me some rest — it’s a concession anyway.

I joined warrior training because Mitchel stepped in last minute to replace me. He even came all the way from his holiday in southern Slovenia. Really amazing of him.

The day itself was quiet, with lots of explaining to everyone understandable when you're walking around with a big medical shoe.

During the show, I watched a bit from the front of house. It gave me goosebumps seeing the show from a different perspective. It wasn't sadness that I wasn’t part of the warriors, it felt different this time. It wasn't that it wasn't my turn; it was simply that I can't , and that hits in another way.

After a few songs, I decided to call Bella, who's also going through a tough time at home. We gave each other some much-needed company; I really miss her a lot.

After the show, we had a cozy little gathering in our backstage area, which had this nice communal space. Then I headed straight to the bus and straight to sleep.Read more