K-tastrophe

Had a nice yoga andmeditstion session this morning.
I went and saw Dawn about my email regarding ski patrol. She basically said no, company policy, we invested too much in training you.
In this really annoyed me initially, I hadn't received any training other than being told to read through this outdated booklet.
I was seathing with anger and then I had a bit of breakthrough, was able to realise that the anger wasn't helpful and that I was only hurting myself. Hiw grateful in actually am for this job and it's only because I formed an attachment for the ski patrol thing that now I'm hurting.
I was glad I got control. I was going to go and apologize to Dawn at lunch for being short or rude. Then Bree walked into the lunch room, so I asked to have a chat.
She was more receptive and at least seemed to be hearing me out. She said she would tall to chris the ski patrol guy. I just wanted to still be considered by ski patrol and if it works out that The Inn would be shirt then I wont go.
I then went to talk to Dawn to say I didnt mean to go around her, Bree just walked into the room. She was obviously pissed about it and was short with and kept saying it hadn't changed anything.
That angered me again because I was getting mixed messages and Dawn wasn't even open to discussion.
She called me back in later and we cleared the air a bit which I appreciated.
It's probably not going to happen, but I can accept that.
I got a bag of ketamine this arvo. I went home and did a line and meditated. Then I did another one and had a bath. When I went to change the the tap to a shower it shit off and water was shooting everywhere. I had to stuff the tap back in. Very stressful on K. I was naked in the shower yelling out for help. Stood there for a bit not sure what to do. Eventually I just got out and found a plank of wood and rammed it between the tap and the wall.
Gratitudes:
1. I'm grateful that I have been writing down my gratitudes because it helped me get over the anger today.
2. I'm grateful for my meditation practice, today really showed how it's been helping.
3. I'm grateful tmfornthe job I have.Read more