Back to the park

Today I went back to the park Lila works at. I tried to find the waterfalls but was unsuccessful. It was a nice hike though. I was a little stuck in my head throughout thinking about what I want to do when I get back; where should I go? Tie dye as a career? Sticking with Carfax? Going back to my friends in Colorado? Eventually I tried to drop it and enjoy the walk, but things kept popping up. I realized I was doing a lot of unconscious clutching and clinging and tried to release that. Then a thought arose, "but if I drop all of that (clutching, clinging, and excitement chasing) what will be left?" A scary thought, but it deepened my understanding of what you must pet drop away to become liberated. Choosing peace and fulfillment over entertainment and excitement is not as easy as it sounds.Read more