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Cambodia

Destination: Angkor Wat
Objective: The Photo
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  • Trip start
    March 11, 2025
  • Tears

    March 11, 2025 in the United States ⋅ ⛅ 52 °F

    I actually teared up when I got the ticket in my hand. I’m going to Hong Kong! At least for a couple of hours. 🥹

  • Japan

    March 13, 2025 in Japan ⋅ ☁️ 37 °F

    Oh, hi guys. I’ll be right back. 👋

    https://findpenguins.com/8d5uq7tucdccz/trip/67c…

    Good morning! I think. We just spent the last hour flying straight down the middle of Japan, Tokyo to Hiroshima. Kinda ironic. I’ll be doing that again in a few weeks, only on the ground. It was cool looking out the window at the lights below. Yes, lights. I haven’t seen the sun since it set when I was home yesterday. It’s been 16 hours already and I don’t think I’ll see it rise for a few more. It’s weird. “The time” is kind of meaningless for me right now.Read more

  • HKG

    March 13, 2025 in Hong Kong ⋅ ☁️ 72 °F

    I successfully navigated HKG airport in Hong Kong, which wasn’t easy. I’ve never deplaned before and had no idea what to do. I found the big board and felt a sinking feeling. What? But once I figured out my flight was 曼谷, I was off. 曼谷, of course.

    To get from my arrival gate to my departure gate took about 30 minutes and involved escalators, elevators, going around in circles a few times, and buses across the tarmac. I estimate it was a couple of miles total and the sun finally rose for me after an unexpected 20 hour night.

    Now it’s off to Bangkok. I’ve got a tracker in my checked travel backpack and fortunately it looks like it will be getting on the next flight with me. I only have 1 hour at BKK to make my flight to Siem Reap. There’s no room for error. I don’t know where my arrival and departing gates will be until I get there, so I can’t plan ahead. Wish me luck!
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  • BKK to SAI

    March 13, 2025 in Thailand ⋅ ☀️ 90 °F

    So little time on the ground in Bangkok. I deplaned from my flight from Hong Kong and scrambled to figure out where my next gate was. I had a little more than an hour till my next takeoff. Fortunately, Bangkok’s airport is much smaller than Hong Kong. I figured out the board pretty quickly this time and navigated my way to the check-in counter, having to go through security on the way.

    Bangkok had the strictest security of all the airports on my trip, including SFO. They riffled through my bag for a while before sending me on my way. At the gate, it was another bus ride across the tarmac. And then we got to the plane, a puddle jumper with propellers. It was quite a bit smaller than the wide-body jumbo jet across the Pacific.

    It was a quick flight to Siem Reap, just little over an hour. But it included a meal! Ironically, it was the best meal I had on all my flights (step it up, United Airlines).

    We deplaned at SAI and had to walk across the tarmac. Boots on the ground in Cambodia! I made it. I did it. It was real. And it was hot and humid. I made it through customs with ease; fortunately, I got my visa before the trip. Yes, you can actually get your visa for Cambodia when you arrive there. A formality, apparently, but I didn’t want to take that chance. Can you imagine?

    And then baggage claim. No bag. I checked the AirTag I had put in my travel backpack. Yup, still in Bangkok. I knew that was a serious possibility with 2 stops and little more than an hour in Bangkok. But I prepared. I had brought the necessities in my carry-on. So I gave myself a little pat on the back, accepted it, got some Cambodian riel at the exchange booth, and booked myself a Tuk Tuk.

    And that was an incredible ride.
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  • The Ride of a Lifetime

    March 13, 2025 in Cambodia ⋅ ☀️ 90 °F

    I’ve had many memorable rides in my life, and I’ve had many rides from airports—either arriving at my destination or returning home. The overlap in the Venn diagram of these sets of rides has been zero, a void. Until today.

    I had no idea what to expect in Cambodia. Outside of my one tangible objective (The Photo), my plan had been to just show up and see what happens. My expectations were pretty low. I did as little research as possible on purpose, just figuring out the bare minimum practical information: language, currency, safety, transportation, etc. Until 28 days ago, I had never even heard of Siem Reap.

    Transportation. That’s one thing I did know. Cambodia’s popular form of transportation is the Tuk Tuk, a three-wheeled motorized rickshaw.

    Once I was settled at the airport—through customs, USD exchanged for some Cambodian riel, and having established that my checked travel backpack was definitely not joining me yet and was just chillin’ in Bangkok (thanks, AirTags)—it was time to find a way to my hotel in downtown Siem Reap. The airport is well out of town in the countryside. I used the app Grab, a popular multipurpose app in Southeast Asia that includes ride-sharing, much like Uber or Lyft. Unlike Uber and Lyft’s vehicle choice options, Grab offers the addition of Tuk Tuks.

    I could have asked for a car—it would have been air-conditioned (it’s hot and humid in Cambodia year round) and much quicker to my hotel after 25 hours of travel—but I went with a Tuk Tuk, and holy shit, did I make the right choice.

    I have never experienced anything like the ride between SAI and the Indra Porak Residence Hotel in downtown Siem Reap. Maybe the closest would be a car ride in the Mexican countryside—but not really close. It was amazing. It was nuts. It was total chaos and order.

    There was wind and odors and sounds. There were bicycles and motorbikes and cars and trucks and pedestrians, all passing within inches in every direction on both sides. Generally, my Tuk Tuk driver kept to the right side of the road (as God intended—good for you, Cambodia), but that wasn’t necessarily the case for everyone. I hung out the sides like an excited dog hanging out a car window.

    There were strange buildings—some of concrete, some of wood, and many cobbled together from sheets of corrugated steel. I saw endless roadside markets. There were weird meats hanging by hooks—whole ribcages. Fruits and vegetables, some familiar, but most unidentifiable. Skinny dogs, just skin and bone.

    There were cattle, livestock—or maybe just animals here—roaming the countryside, skinny too. Endless rows of bicycles waited to be used. I saw stands selling golden-painted models of temples and shrines, some small, with rows increasing in size to truly enormous—the size of a queen-size bed.

    People, motorbikes, bicycles, and cars moved alongside one another or passed in the opposite direction. I could reach out and touch them. We were all together.

    And the smells—there’s no way to record the smells, but I can still smell them.

    I took it all in, filming and photographing the whole way, desperate to record it, to keep it. But there’s no way the videos, pictures, or words can truly describe it. I won’t be able to transmit it or keep it, as much as I want to. My memories of it will fade over time, and the pictures and recordings might jog my memory a bit.

    But I know I’ll never lose the feeling—the memory of how it felt. I cried, and I could see the smile on my face in the mirror of the Tuk Tuk. Those were tears of joy. I felt alive, like I hadn’t in a very long time—if ever.

    I’m truly alive. And I want more—so much more.

    PS - Make sure to watch the videos. 😉
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  • Home Away from Home

    March 13, 2025 in Cambodia ⋅ ⛅ 91 °F

    30 hours. It took 30 hours door-to-door. I left my apartment in beautiful Northern California at 7:30 p.m. on Tuesday, March 11, 2025. I walked into my room at the Indra Porak Residence Hotel in beautiful Siem Reap, Cambodia, at 3:30 p.m. on Thursday, March 13, Cambodian time. Car, buses, 3 planes, and a tuk-tuk. 4 airports and 15 time zones. No sunsets and one sunrise. And, you know what? It wasn’t bad. I can do this.

    My room is great. It’s, well, roomy. A king-sized bed for little ol’ me (for now?), high ceilings, a side room with a desk for my writing and photo work (I brought all my gear. I’m portable now), and a bathroom with a tub and 2 showers (I’ll use both. At the same time. Because I can.), a mini-fridge, and air conditioning (thank you, air conditioning). Oh, and a plate full of fresh fruit and a glass of fresh squeezed juice.

    And, the art. There’s a whole display shelf separating the “bedroom” and the “office” area with cool figurines and stuff. There’s a beautiful piece above the bed. But, boy. Oh, boy. The painting beside the bed. It’s a different style, but the content is the same: Angkor Wat, the reflecting pool, the tree on the left, and the distant palm trees on the right. It’s the same. It’s just like the painting in the Donut King. The painting that brought me here. And, it hangs here on the wall. In my room. Because, of course, it does. That’s just how things go now. I’m getting used to it. But, I don’t take it for granted. Thank you (🙏).

    I crashed for a few hours and was awakened by a heavy, but distant-sounding, thud on the thick, heavy door. What a lovely surprise. My backpack. 😁
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  • American-ish breakfast

    March 14, 2025 in Cambodia ⋅ ⛅ 91 °F

    Decided to start off with something American-ish for breakfast. I plan on getting adventurous while I’m here culinary-wise, but better not start off too crazy and risk getting sick right off the bat. I’ll save the real crazy stuff for the end. You know, right before I get on some planes for 24 hours.

    Delicious! Though, those definitely weren’t Jimmy Dean sausages. And, yeah, that’s US dollars.
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  • The Meeting

    March 14, 2025 in Cambodia ⋅ ☁️ 93 °F

    There are only two AA meetings a week in Siem Reap. I wanted to get to one as soon as I was able to once here. It was a priority.

    One of the perks of being a sober alcoholic is that you can go to an AA meeting anywhere in the world and feel immediately at home. You’re amongst friends. I needed to find my people and make some connections. That was the plan. And that’s exactly what happened.

    One of the two AA meetings was at 12:30 PM on my first full day in Cambodia. After walking and exploring the city all morning, I made my way to St. John’s Catholic Church. When I got there, there were a few people just hanging out.

    “Friends of Bill?”

    Yup.

    Just before the meeting start time, a couple of guys showed up and opened up the sliding glass door to the room we were meeting in. It was tiny and hot. There was just a little table and some chairs, a shelf with Bibles and some AA literature, and various Catholic-y things on the walls.

    There were six of us total—myself, John and Brenden from Cork, Ireland; Amber, originally from Southern California but now living in Cambodia; Vinny from the UK; and another John, who lives in—wait for it—Kyoto, Japan. Of course he does. I’ll be in Kyoto in about a month.

    It was a step study meeting, and the step for that day’s meeting? Step 2. Of course it was. That’s why I’m here. That’s why I’m in Cambodia. I’m on a spiritual quest.

    The meeting was amazing. One of the best I’ve been to of the probably close to 2,000 meetings I’ve attended since starting AA nearly a decade ago. Of course it was.

    After some standard meeting readings—How It Works, the traditions, and some intros for the Siem Reap meeting—we all took turns reading a paragraph or two on Step 2 from the 12 and 12. We read the first few pages, which I relate to completely. Then we all took turns sharing, and each was incredibly heartfelt, honest, vulnerable, and moving.

    We all have the same experiences. We all have the same feelings. We all have the same struggles. We’ve all been saved from certain misery and even death. We all have recovery. We are from all across the globe but together in Siem Reap, Cambodia. But we are all the same. We are kin.

    After the meeting, I talked to John from Kyoto. He won’t be there when I am, but he told me where the meeting is that I should go to. Nishijin Church. Ah-ha. Another waypoint on my path.

    Amber, Vinny, and I hung out by the river, had refreshments, and talked. Vinny had to go after a bit, though we exchanged WhatsApp info and agreed to meet up later.

    Amber and I hung out for another hour or so. We really hit it off. It was a great conversation. She’s a photographer. Of course she is. But not just any photographer. Her background is in photojournalism.

    I didn’t catch it at first. She whispered it. Apparently, that could be a bad word here. That made me pause.

    Cambodia has a brutal history. Genocide. Within both of our lifetimes. Many of the people I see walking these streets lived through that. I can’t imagine. It’s hard to reconcile—how these warm, kind people could have done that, to each other. They still live in its shadow. Maybe it reshaped them.

    Amber gave me a bunch of tips about where to go, what to do, and what to see here, as well as many practical tips about navigating the upcoming week. I am grateful to her. She’s awesome. We exchanged WhatsApp info too. She, Vinny, and I all plan on being at that next meeting Tuesday night. We’ll probably get a bite beforehand.

    And that’s AA. A lifeline anywhere in the world. A reminder that we’re never alone. Thank you, AA.
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  • Cock a Doodle Doo!

    March 15, 2025 in Cambodia ⋅ ☀️ 79 °F

    Good morning, Siem Reap!

    It’s Saturday, but it seems like just another day. The markets are setting up. The kids seem to be going to school today. There are entire families on a single motorbike, backpacks in tow.

    Let’s go visit some thousand-year-old temples today!
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  • The Bodhi Tree

    March 16, 2025 in Cambodia ⋅ ☁️ 95 °F

    I was feeling a bit uneasy this morning. I was in my head, not fully present, not sure what to do today—feeling pressure to make the most of the precious little time I have here. Fighting with technology and my devices, feeling guilty for not writing and posting more pictures. All the doubts and my typical life anxieties were creeping back in.

    No. Not here. Not now. Everything has been so great.

    I had to get out. I needed to relax and take it easy, but I didn’t want to sit around the hotel all day. I could just go hang out at a café downtown, write a bit, and go through some pictures. I asked my technology god for café suggestions, which it gave, but it also suggested I check out Wat Damnak Grounds.

    What’s that?

    “A peaceful Buddhist temple with shaded spots to sit and write.”

    Oh, cool. Not great for plopping down with a laptop, but I’d stop there first, then hit a nearby café.

    I started walking downtown—about a 20-minute walk—but halfway there, I realized it was just too hot, and the noise in my head was too much. I wasn’t enjoying the walk. I wasn’t paying attention to anything around me like I have been since arriving here.

    Fuck it. Tuk-tuk.

    My driver was awesome. When we got to Wat Damnak, he knew all about it and explained the place to me. Wat Damnak Grounds is a historic Buddhist temple complex. Once a royal palace, it is now a monastery, community center, and place of worship. It has traditional Khmer stupas, a library, and even a crematorium.

    I wandered around. It was huge. Lots of cool stuff, but I wanted to find an appropriate place to sit, meditate, and pray for a bit. I pulled out my phone and checked with my digital oracle again.

    Bodhi tree!

    I’m in Cambodia. There are Bodhi trees here!

    “Many temples have a sacred Bodhi tree,” it told me. Holy shit! There might be a Bodhi tree here.

    Bodhi trees are sacred in Buddhism. The Buddha meditated beneath a Bodhi tree with unwavering focus, overcoming distractions and temptations, until he reached enlightenment.

    Bodhi. That’s what my former girlfriend called me. It was my pet name. She once got me a bracelet made of Bodhi seeds as a gift. It was touching.

    Is there a Bodhi tree here at Wat Damnak? What do they look like?

    I checked my phone. That’s right, heart-shaped leaves.

    I looked up from my phone and started looking around.

    Wat Damnak does have a Bodhi tree. One. And I was already standing beneath it.

    Of course I was.

    It had been quiet as I walked around the grounds, and suddenly there was a loud roar. It was the Bodhi tree. Cicadas. Loud. The inside of my head, externalized.

    I found a place to sit. I sat for a long while with the roar of the cicadas. I closed my eyes. I talked for a bit. And then, I just listened.

    Eventually, the cicadas stopped, and it was quiet again.

    And so was my head.

    And now I know what it’s like to sit under the Bodhi tree.

    Well, at least for an hour.
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  • Bong Tom

    March 16, 2025 in Cambodia ⋅ ☁️ 84 °F

    Bong Tom has become my main tuk-tuk driver. He’s awesome. I love him.

    He hangs around outside the hotel where I’m staying—it’s his niche. The hotel is in the southern part of the city, where locals live—away from the touristy downtown areas.

    In downtown Siem Reap, it’s easy to grab a tuk-tuk. Drivers are everywhere, just hanging out, waiting for their next hire. The competition is tough. Many of them try to sell themselves as you walk down the street.

    But that’s not the case where I’m staying, especially at night when the local markets close up. Those markets cater to the locals, and at night, the locals are home—not out like the tourists in the late-night “Mardi Gras” parts of downtown.

    Bong Tom, though, is usually around. I’m not sure if he has some kind of agreement with the hotel or what.

    For two bucks, he’ll whiz me downtown in about seven minutes—and he’ll come pick me up too. I’ve got his WhatsApp number. Every time he drops me off, he makes sure to remind me to give him a call when I’m ready to head back. I call, and seven minutes later, up pulls Bong Tom with a big smile.

    The other day, I hired him to take me around to the temples for the day—fifteen bucks. He just kicked back outside and waited to take me to the next temple. It made me a little uncomfortable, but that’s how it works here, and he seems genuinely happy to do it. That’s a lot of money for a tuk-tuk driver, and most of the time, he just gets to hang out and shoot the shit with the other drivers doing the same.

    When I finished for the day, I found him lying back, napping in the cushioned seats. I felt bad. I didn’t want to wake him—he looked so comfortable.

    Thanks, Bong Tom. You’re awesome!
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  • Busy busy busy

    March 18, 2025 in Cambodia ⋅ 🌙 82 °F

    My deepest apologies for not keeping up. I’ve been busy, busy, busy and struggling to stay on top of everything. I’ve already taken over 2,300 photos and videos since I started my excursion here in Cambodia. I’m going to have to backdate a bunch of posts when I can find the time—maybe not until my return.

    So here’s a brief summary of just some of the things I’ve been up to.

    I’m now fully mobile. I rented an electric scooter to tackle a temple run the other day—total freedom. I loved it so much I’ve rented one for the remainder of my stay. Forget tuk-tuks. I’m now zipping around the Cambodian countryside and the city of Siem Reap on my own, zigzagging obstacles, people, and vehicles left and right. It’s incredible.

    Today, my new bloke Vinny (from London) and I hired a driver, Sum Bross, and his van to take us way out into the country. We had a blast checking out cliffs, waterfalls, mountains, and temples deep in the jungle. We had lunch in the shadows of the massive pyramid temple Koh Ker and met so many friendly and wonderful people along the way.

    Tonight, I attended my second AA meeting and met some more awesome ex-pat sober folks, getting their WhatsApp info so we can stay in touch. Afterwards, Vinny, Amber, and I went out for a delicious Cambodian dinner with Vinny’s sponsee, Amanda, and her husband, Charlie, from London, who just so happened to be in town. We had a wonderful time talking recovery, world travel, and the differences between our mother countries and others they’ve visited.

    My experience here has been beyond what I could ever have imagined. The beauty, the people, the culture—it’s been like living in a dream. A fantasy world come alive. I keep getting overwhelmed with awe and joy, eyes watering.

    Tomorrow, I’m going to visit some museums, explore more of the city on my scooter, and maybe spend some time with Amber.
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  • Museum Day

    March 19, 2025 in Cambodia ⋅ ☁️ 86 °F

    Today was a museum day for me. I traversed the smooth paved streets and bumpy dirt roads on my electric scooter and visited three.

    First up was the Angkor National Museum. It showcases the art, history, and culture of the Khmer Empire, with a focus on Angkorian artifacts. It’s well-organized with interactive exhibits, providing deeper context for Angkor’s temples. It’s an air-conditioned museum. And, unfortunately, I visited it after tackling many temples in the flesh. The artifacts are beautiful, but after visiting temples in the jungle, the setting felt sterile and disconnected. The exit was through the gift shop.

    Next was the APOPO Visitor Center. APOPO is an organization that trains rats to detect landmines, and they’ve been working in Cambodia to help clear explosive remnants of war. Using specially trained “HeroRATS,” they speed up mine detection, making the process safer and more efficient. Given Cambodia’s history, with millions of landmines still in the ground, their work is crucial in making land safe for communities. It’s a smart, practical solution to a devastating problem.

    One might think that rats are used because they are expendable compared to human workers, but that’s not the case. These aren’t the rats sometimes eaten here in Cambodia. They use African giant pouched rats imported from Tanzania. Though large for rats, they are lightweight compared to humans and devices, meaning they don’t trigger the mines. They also have an incredible sense of smell, allowing them to quickly identify explosives. They’re trainable, highly intelligent, and perfect for the job. Plus, they work faster than traditional metal detectors, helping clear land more efficiently. These are highly trained and valuable animals, and they are well cared for—the precious few that there are.

    Oh, and they’re adorable and friendly too. I got to hold one after a demonstration of their methodical mine-searching process.

    These rats save lives. These days, dozens of Cambodians are still killed every year from hidden landmines and unexploded ordnances, down from thousands a year in the 1990s. Half of those killed are children. And that’s just casualties. Many more are left injured and maimed. Many disabled Cambodians are victims of landmines. It’s a tragic reminder that wars continue to devastate long after both sides have laid down their arms, especially when indiscriminate tactics are employed.

    Thank you, HeroRATs.

    Finally, I visited the War Museum Cambodia. It’s on the outskirts of the city, down a red, dusty dirt road. It is not as well attended as the other museums I visited. I spent an hour there roaming around, entirely alone. What a place, though. Haunting.

    The museum features a collection of tanks, helicopters, weapons, and artifacts from the Khmer Rouge era and beyond. It’s an open-air museum, and nothing is cared for. Everything is out in the open and untouched, rusting and rotting in the humid Cambodian heat. But it’s beautiful. To me, anyway. Surrounded by green wild grasses and fruit-filled trees, the decomposing machines dot the museum grounds like an abandoned battlefield they once wreaked havoc on.

    And the textures. Those who know me know my love of textures, especially natural entropic ones. Unlike the lichen, moss, and algae-created textures of the temples, these machines are etched by rust and decomposing paint. The textures of the temples cling to objects of creation, and those of the War Museum Cambodia to objects of destruction. But both are beautiful. To me, anyway.

    After the museums, I made my way back to the hotel, down a three-lane main thoroughfare, and then through less traveled side streets lined with the same small shanty markets and shops that cover the city. Kids played in the dirt, being kids.

    I rested for a bit, went through some photos, washed off the day’s grime, and headed back downtown for dinner with Vinny, Charlie, and Amanda. More great Khmer food and hours of conversation. I’m gathering information.

    Tomorrow is my last full day here in Siem Reap—for now. I’m going to head back out into the country to see Banteay Srei, which translates to “Citadel of Women.” It’s supposed to be a particularly intricately detailed temple, which some believe could only have been done by the hands of women due to their delicate detail. Um, okay.

    It’s 25 kilometers outside of town (yes, I’m using the metric system. It’s not that scary.), so I probably won’t be able to make it on the bike. Amber may join me if she’s feeling better (she wasn’t feeling well enough to join us for dinner tonight), so a tuk-tuk would be necessary anyway.

    Cheers, mates!
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    Trip end
    March 21, 2025