• Daria's sad

    29 december 2018, Canada ⋅ ❄️ -1 °C

    Had work until 4. Watched a lot of Netflix. The haunting of hill house.
    I asked Daria if she wanted to come around to play some foosball. She said she finished work at 9 but would come straight over but wouldn't stay long because she needs to cook for tomorrow and stuff. I offered to give her dinner because she wouldn't have eaten yet and shes running out of groceries.
    Before she got here I was thinking she felt like she had to come, nd totally totally understand if she w ou uld prefer to jus go home. But I think she did genuinely want to come over to hang out.
    We ended up just chatting the whole night again, no foosball, which is fine with me. I really enjoy just talking with her.
    She said shes bee sad though and that she can't really connect with people. Shes thinking about leaving. I'd obviously prefer she didn't.
    I pointed out that shes looking to move because she thinks she'll find happiness at the next place, in the future, in different circumstances and that she can learn to be happy anywhere in any circumstance.
    Shes been working really hard and not having much time for her self.
    She wants to just hang out on the couch sometime and do nothing. Man I just want a cuddle so bad.
    I can't tell if I'm reading the situation incorrectly but I think we could progress in some way.
    She asked if i wanted to go snow shoeing for new years eve. Jumped at the idea, because I was getting really tempted to just cut loose and do a bunch of drugs and get grab a case of beer.
    I ended up having to kick her out. But introduced the 9 second hug. I hope she feels better.
    Gratitudes:
    1. I'm grateful for time spent with Daria, she makes me want to be better.
    2. I'm grateful for how much snow we have been getting.
    3. I'm grateful that my sickness is pretty much gone as my meditation is back on track.
    It didn't last long. Anicca.
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