04/26 in Sibiu - incl “secret” 26th bday

This month did I not only turn 26 years old
I have grown up - to become myself - the one that’s bold!!
Habitually I’ve been trying to find the I,
the me, the hidden self, the one keeping shy
but this time it has come to be
that it found me. It FOUND me.

Nevertheless, I did enjoy
along an unknown path I rode my yellow toy
no one around, only in the consciousness of my own company
the feeling of liberty and freedom, of certainty
that I have chosen the rightful way
From here on this sound approach will have to stay

I do have doubts: missing prospective
but overwhelming feelings are subjective
I suppose to let things happen and then tolerate
Thoughts relying on embraces; also: I believe in fate
Fate is a concept I like to think of as inherently
In the end it will turn out better than expected, definitely.

What you have to be aware of (or not) I do not know —
Is that I know what mud tastes like and how…
How you don’t want to get up and never again
feel sunlights’ touch warmthen your skin
‘ve come from the depths of yesterday
To the presence of tomorrow, being present in this century

Not taking for granted the perception of tones and coloration
the encounters and talks, the people, ideas, thoughts and sensations
Nowhere I live and everywhere I am
Relentless reflections, brain’s stuck in a traffic jam
Now the time has come to do what I foresee
Taking a leap, praying and proceeding: to be free!

(Update 14:39 Uhr: grad mal wieder ein großer kleiner Nervenzusammenbruch wegen des Studentenwohnheims und der Mentalität und Einstellung der Menschen hier. Was ich draus gelernt habe? Ich habe in meinem Leben genügend Schlimmes durchgemacht und brauche nicht noch mehr Erfahrungen dieser Art. Ich werde es überleben! - aber um ehrlich zu sein sind es die Hunderte von Euros nicht wert, die ich in Nachhinein in Gespräche investieren muss, damit die Situationen überwunden werden. Self care and prevention, guys. A und O.)Okumaya devam et